tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32033776374889134502024-03-08T15:42:31.982-08:00Asian American Divorcing Dad, Surviving InfidelityThis blog is an effort to share my journey as an Asian American single father of 3 kids...I've filed for the Divorce, took the babes (I'll have sole custody of the sub-18 ones), I've left my well-paying job, my town, foreclosing the house, filing Title 7...and with a big gulp and lots of help from family and friends, I'm looking forward to better days. You are welcome to come along for the ride. Please share your thoughts, experiences, advice, successes and failures!
~AADDAsian American Divorcing Dadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14292923034468688884noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3203377637488913450.post-70312884052271949542011-08-04T02:46:00.000-07:002011-08-04T02:53:01.056-07:00Billy Joel describing Borderline Personality Disorder?<div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">This is a great live, version of Billy Joel's classic "She's Always A Woman". I also love the slower, more famous recorded version from the 1977 album, "The Stranger".</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">Listening to this, I wonder if he was ever living with someone having Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) or Narcissistic Personality Disorder traits.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">Although I'm no Doc, these lyrics describe my experience living with my-soon-to-be-ex...to a T. To me it is a very sad, lonely, poignant, and insightful portrait of someone with many mental health challenges--not a love song at all, in the normal sense...</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><br />
</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">Anyways, every line revealed is a thousand memories in my mind. Lyrics and link below--enjoy...</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><br />
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She can kill with a smile<br />
She can wound with her eyes<br />
She can ruin your faith with her casual lies<br />
And she only reveals what she wants you to see<br />
She hides like a child,<br />
But she's always a woman to me<br />
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She can lead you to love<br />
She can take you or leave you<br />
She can ask for the truth<br />
But she'll never believe you<br />
And she'll take what you give her, as long as it's free<br />
Yeah, she steals like a thief<br />
But she's always a woman to me<br />
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CHORUS:<br />
Oh--she takes care of herself<br />
She can wait if she wants<br />
She's ahead of her time<br />
Oh--and she never gives out<br />
And she never gives in<br />
She just changes her mind<br />
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And she'll promise you more<br />
Than the Garden of Eden<br />
Then she'll carelessly cut you<br />
And laugh while you're bleedin'<br />
But she'll bring out the best<br />
And the worst you can be<br />
Blame it all on yourself<br />
Cause she's always a woman to me<br />
--Mhmm--<br />
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Bridge<br />
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CHORUS:<br />
Oh--she takes care of herself<br />
She can wait if she wants<br />
She's ahead of her time<br />
Oh--and she never gives out<br />
And she never gives in<br />
She just changes her mind<br />
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She is frequently kind<br />
And she's suddenly cruel<br />
She can do as she pleases<br />
She's nobody's fool<br />
And she can't be convicted<br />
She's earned her degree<br />
And the most she will do<br />
Is throw shadows at you<br />
But she's always a woman to me<br />
--Mhmm--Asian American Divorcing Dadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14292923034468688884noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3203377637488913450.post-74041449949770516912011-07-18T06:17:00.000-07:002011-07-18T06:17:33.396-07:00Wow. Sorry, if this blog is not for you......but I'm not going to apologize to the ANGRY WHITE MAN screaming at me in all caps on Facebook... This site is not intended to promote stealing psychological support resources away from you if you fall into the white male category. This blog is merely meant as a journal on a microcosmic plot of land on the internets to share my own personal experience with others who might identify with me, and my situation.<br />
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Yes, I advocate for multilingual psychological support services, yes I advocate for family support services for refugees and immigrant families who may not have access, may not be aware of access, may be averse to accessing and accepting support services. Yes I advocate for Asian males who are surviving infidelity to talk with each other. Yes this site if for Asian men who's ex's may be experience PTSD from growing up in a war-torn country, plastered with US bombs. Yes this is a site for folks living with someone with BDP and are struggling to make sense of it. <br />
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By the way, sir, the kids are already mine. So, yes, this site is also for Asian men finding themselves raising their children in a society filled with idiotic people who claim that America is a colorblind society. <br />
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If you don't like the issues I relate to, then change the channel. No need to huff-and-puff and pick a fight.Asian American Divorcing Dadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14292923034468688884noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3203377637488913450.post-44162437417684924122011-06-19T04:10:00.001-07:002011-06-19T04:15:57.038-07:00Father's Day, Part 2: Three Things, from Ric Elias (TED2011)<title></title> <style type="text/css">
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</span></div><div class="p1"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Following up on my previous post, I wanted to share a perfect-for-Father's Day, top-shelf, TED video I came across that hits me hard every time and without fail (in the gut, in my adam's apple, and in both nasolacrimals). If you didn't already bookmark this one in March, Ric Elias shares a near death experience as he almost died in a plane crash, and had a front row seat, to boot.</span></div><div class="p2"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></div><div class="p1"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">3:30-4:10, I DARE YOUR THROAT NOT TO CRY</span></div><div class="p2"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></div><div class="p1"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="s1">Spoiler alert</span>: Ric speaks of urgency and purpose, about the choices we make, and not taking any-one moment for granted. Fast-forward to the punch, Ric's challenge to the audience: "I challenge you guys...how would you change; what would you get done that you're waiting to get done because you think you're going to be here forever? How would you change your relationships and the negative energy in them? </span></div><div class="p2"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></div><div class="p1"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">And, more than anything, are you being the best parent you can?"</span></div><div class="p2"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></div><div class="p1"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Fathers, have a great day...let's be the best we can be.</span></div>Asian American Divorcing Dadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14292923034468688884noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3203377637488913450.post-30821186948052866342011-06-19T03:42:00.000-07:002011-06-19T03:42:23.195-07:00Father's Day, Part I: Three Key RelationshipsI was asked recently by a friend for some advice on how to not end up in my situation. How the hell could he avoid ending up with someone who would treat him like a piece of chewed up pet dog's bull-penis rawhide, experience massive depression, mid-life crisis, infidelity, and possibly* mental health issues (BPD, Narcissism, PTSD). In short, how to "pick someone better" the first time.<br />
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*I say "possibly" here, not to demonize my wife, and also to acknowledge that I am not a mental health professional, nor has she been diagnosed in all of the above areas...formally, yet...<br />
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Without going into the complexities of the unique relationship that my spouse and I had, and all of the faults that are possibly my own, this is my response. This falls in the category of "Three Things to Set Your Please Don't Screw Me Over in 10 years" radar onto. Important to look at early on, which, I feel, could determine the success of any long-term romantic relationship, be it two humans, chimps, squids, micropachycephalosauri, etc.<br />
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1) Relationship between Mom. Duh. Of course, in certain circles, this relationship is handily blamed for everything from suicides to thumb-sucking and 40-year-old virgins. What you might miss in your Psych 101 textbook, is the 'nature' of this relationship and how it sticks with us into adulthood on an unconscious level, as well as, how this kid to mom relationship impacts a family, GRANDPARENTS-deep.<br />
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2) Relationship between Pops. Oft overlooked is the relationship between the child and the father. Hopefully not today, being that this post is dedicated to all of the fathers on Father's Day 2011 who aren't deadbeating around, and who get it. Fathers are HUGE! Let me say it again, the relationship between that little girl that became your wife, and her father who beat her, punked her, possibly molested her or raped her which she never talked to you about, who spat on her for growing into a strong woman, who basically abused her in every way imaginable and..well, you get the picture. Check this relationship out. Grandparents-deep as well.<br />
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3) Relationship between Siblings. Brothers and/or sisters. Can't live with them, can't live with them. If you haven't thought about your new girlfriend's relationship with her brothers who, like her father, beat her ass when she was a kid, and stole her lunch money, and now steal her gas and rent money, or her sister's who broke her back with the leftover chores and such. Were not talking a little sibling rivalry here, and it goes both ways: if she had a brother who she beat on all the time in private and showered him with love with the uncles and aunts around gearing up into Christmas season, guess who's going to get the short end of the stick late night after all the fun and joy of the cocktail party is over and you get plowed for not mentioning how sparkling her necklace looked on her that evening. Just saying. God sibling relationships are a good sign. Good bros and sisters are a good sign. Kids breaking each other's heads in, not so much.Asian American Divorcing Dadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14292923034468688884noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3203377637488913450.post-33446135929585498242011-06-10T22:46:00.000-07:002011-06-11T01:39:25.596-07:00Happy AnniversaryJune 10, 2011--What better way to celebrate our 11th anniversary than to take a few minutes to set up a blog, documenting my experience as an Asian American single father of 3 kids, going through a profound change in my life, one brought on by multiple cases of infidelity, and one that is leading to divorce.<br />
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So...who is my target audience? Well, I hope that this blog will be of interest to guys who can identify with me and my experience, and hopefully we can help each other.<br />
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With that intro, I welcome you, be it a survivor with stories to tell, going through it yourself (or suspecting you are about to be). Post your questions, rants, general updates and survival tips.<br />
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Be well and check back often,<br />
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-Asian American Divorcing Dad, Surviving Infidelity (AADD)Asian American Divorcing Dadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14292923034468688884noreply@blogger.com0